Little Miracles

Little Miracles A couple of weeks back I was sitting in a hospital bed, admitted after a tumour (and the ovary it was attached to) twisted, ruptured, and caused some internal bleeding. Hands down, the worst pain yet. Luckily, everything seems to have fixed itself now. No need for surgery, my uterus lives to see […]

Showing up for Yourself

Showing up for Yourself I’m so grateful for all of the well-meaning advice people have offered me since my diagnoses, I’ve tried and tested a number of theories. There was the carrot juice diet (my skin turned orange), the sugar free diet, the vegan diet, the keto diet, the juice detox, the wheatgrass shots, endless […]

London – My Marsden Experience

London – My Marsden Experience My trip to the Royal Marsden Hospital seems like a lifetime ago now but for some reason I haven’t been in the right frame of mind to sit down and blog about it. I think it’s because I wanted a holiday from cancer for a while and in some ways […]

My New Zealand Whanau

My New Zealand Whanau When I came to New Zealand in 2010 I really didn’t know anything about the country, it wasn’t until I’d seen and experienced it for myself that I fully appreciated the sheer beauty of the place and the kind nature of the people. I fell in love with Wellington and decided […]

When Bad News is Better than No News

When Bad News is Better than No News I’ve spent the last 2-3 weeks waiting on results, basically driving myself insane. The constant spiral of scenarios spinning around my mind have made me unbelievably anxious and now I’ve given myself hives so I’m itchy and anxious. Annoying. Anyone who has cancer (or loves someone who […]

Tears Caused by Kindness

Tears Caused by Kindness I’m sitting at the kitchen table, tears rolling down my cheeks. Every now and then it all gets a bit much and I have a good old cry about how damned screwed up this whole cancer mess is. These aren’t those kind of tears though, these tears have been caused by […]

Hit with a Curve Ball

Hit with a Curve Ball 3 rounds of chemo and a CT scan later and I find myself in my Oncologist’s office waiting on some news. I had a feeling it was bad news when he asked me to come to the hospital instead of speaking to me over the phone. We’d planned 6 rounds […]

Symptoms Vs Side Effects

Symptoms Vs Side Effects My body is a wondrous young thing. In my 34 years I’ve survived meningitis, pulmonary pneumonia and now I’m fighting stage 3 ovarian cancer. Strangely enough I don’t consider myself to be a sickish person. I don’t get coughs or colds, I’ve never broken a bone and until recently I rarely […]

Off With Her Hair – When bald is best.

Off with her Hair – When bald is best It’s handy that you can’t see yourself,  I quite often forget I don’t have hair until a stranger gives me a second look or I catch a glimpse of my reflection in a car window. It started falling out gradually at first and I was able […]

Off to the Wig Shop

A Visit to the Wig Shop At first I didn’t think losing my hair would bother me so much. I didn’t like the style all that much anyhow and had been fed up with it for a while. I actually saw this as a good opportunity to experiment and cut it from straight and long […]